Separated by an ocean or two, but we never stop thinking of you!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY Tony!!!! I miss my hubby and Channing misses his dad! Hugs and kisses ❤️❤️❤️!
So while the actual deployment has been easier than others. I’ve been feeling so overwhelmed! I have too much going on at once. I’m a new mom, back in school full time, and I returned back to work from my maternity leave all while my husband is deployed. My anxiety has exploded! My triggers don’t just set me off, they break me down now. I went to the doctors today and I think he confused my anxiety with depression. I swear to you all I’m not sad. I have so many positives in my life that make the negative seem minimal, I just have lost all patience with things and my anxiety attacks are now more often than not. He prescribed me Prozac but I’m so conflicted if I should take it. I’m uncomfortable taking depression medicine when I don’t feel depressed. I just feel like I’m constantly walking on egg shells. Definitely need something to mellow me out, but something that strong? I just don’t know.
My sitter just told me she thinks my son is about to crawl… I said “I don’t want to miss it!! Video!!!” She wrote back, “I am.”
I just died a little. Being back at work takes away these moments. My eyes are welding up. =’( I lie, I’m crying sitting at my desk.
Hello toes👣!! #babyboy #4months #handsome #toes #beanie #19weeks #babyblue #littledude #littleman #salvexican #mexidorian
I have to say it, this deployment seems much easier than the past ones. maybe because it’s shorter than I’m used too, maybe because I have our son to keep me company, or maybe because I’m just too dang busy to be sad. I’m not complaining. There are times it hits me though. Like when I’m playing with my son, and I wish his father could see what I’m looking at. I try and take short videos and send to him, but it’s not the same as being together. Well, hopefully the remainder of this time apart will continue to pass by fast. I can’t wait to have my whole family together again. Gotta get back to work. Have a good day bloggers!
My handsome boy💙 Posing for a picture to send to his deployed daddy. #babyboy #16weeks #3months #smile #cutekidsofinstagram #cutekidsclub #instacute #mexidorian #salvexican
Of course I can’t sleep. I was the last one to go to bed and first one up at 4am. Shit even the baby is sleeping longer than me. I’m anxious, but strangely the build up is a little less sad this time. Still hurts but just a little less. I don’t know probably because Channing is teething and wearing me out, also might be a little shorter of a deployment than we’re used to (hopefully will be.) BUT I can definitely anticipate I’ll be a wreck the first week, maybe even 2… But gotta stay strong for Channing because his needs won’t be less, they will be more. I’m so glad I asked for an extra month of maternity leave. I don’t think I could of handled already being back to work and this deployment at the same time. I have 2 weeks to get most of my tears out before I’m back to work July 1st. Then I’m sure it will be new ones from being away from my baby during the day. What can I say, I’m an emotional creature (as my husband calls me.) But I’ll tackle that hill when I get there. For now going to soak in every minute I can with the hubs. Every second counts. We’re gonna try and off road today, and tomorrow I want to not leave the house and cuddle all day. Will be our last full day together for a while. Now I think I’ll try and sleep again…zzz.
My baby boy is 3 months!!
Sneaky kid! #funny #cutebaby #poopydiaper #funnyfaces #babyboy #mybaby #yeahhedid